Today, I’m pausing. I’m pausing to take in these little moments with Delaney and to enjoy them. I can already tell it’s going by so fast. Too fast.

She’s busy and wants to move. For 90% of the day, I’m simply her vehicle to getting where she wants to go and that’s standing and moving. She can’t crawl, can’t even roll, but this girl is determined to walk. I won’t be surprised if it happens soon. And with that, I feel so excited to see her take on the world of toddler-dom while at the same time, I can’t even believe we’re anywhere near that.

For so much of our days, Delaney is turning into a little kid. There are fewer and fewer moments that I feel like I have a baby. Every day, though, she reminds me that she’s still so small when she’s tired. She rubs her eyes, reaches for me, wants her paci, snuggles her stuffed duck, and nuzzles into me in the most precise way when she’s about to go to sleep. I love every ounce of these times and this morning, I’m so thankful for this perfect fit. As I rocked her in the rocking chair this morning, I sat for longer than usual and just relaxed, reminding myself that the cleaning, the job searching and the worrying can wait.

I am so tired so much of the time and feel the pangs of anxiety about the future of my career, the future of my friendships, the future of our family and just about everything else. But, today especially, I just want to embrace this time. I am so, so lucky to have this sweet girl and a husband who loves me and her with all of his heart. I am so thankful to live in this amazing city, to have traveled so much with family this summer, to have loyal friends who haven’t yet forgotten me since I became a mom, to have so many new friends through motherhood, and at least for now, to have time with my baby this summer that so many new moms would die for.

Today, I just want to enjoy this perfect fit.