As I continue to settle into motherhood and getting to know Delaney with every single minute that passes, I can safely say I love this thing called life with Jordan and Delaney. This month has been a big turning point for me as a Mom and Delaney as a baby.

I have officially started working again. One year ago, the future of my career was a big FAT unknown (more on that another day) but I really can’t imagine what my life would be like had things not gone the way they did. For so many reasons, it was horrible. I was petrified for what the future held for me and my future baby and of course, Jordan and my lifestyle. I’ve had the pleasure of staying home with Delaney full time much longer than any maternity leave would allow for and now I’m working part time in consulting and it’s going great so far!

Delaney has also officially started working…on moving! She still doesn’t roll over but the girl moves more while sitting than anyone I’ve ever met, she pulls herself up and will take steps with her hands held. She is starting to get frustrated that she can’t just get up and move with her baby friends. I love seeing how determined she is, despite it being pretty exhausting.

On the other hand, I’ve been exhausted. After months and months of poor sleep, it’s starting to wear on me. I am snippy with people, I walk around like a zombie much of the time, I’m forgetful, and I find that I can’t be totally in the moment with Delaney because I can hardly function. I will dedicate a whole post to the sleep stuff, but we’ve tried almost everything and it’s getting overwhelmingly bleak. But, I know she will eventually sleep — RIGHT!?

This week, we leave for a 2.5 week trip (it’s not vacation anymore…it’s just not) and Jordan isn’t coming with us. I’m flying out to Park City to meet my family for 5 days, then back to Maryland for one of my best friend’s wedding, and then to the beach for a week with my Mom and the rest of the family for 4th of July! I’m scared to be on my own with Delaney in so many new places since I know the sleeping will only get worse, but I’m empowered knowing that I can take her anywhere. I feel lucky to have these experiences with her and my family and can’t wait to see everyone.

I’ll miss Jordan and most of all, his helpful ways. It’ll be sad to see Delaney do new things without Jordan there but I’m excited for him that he’ll get some real, uninterrupted sleep for the first time since March.